One Foot in Front of the Other

Day 33

It's been a heel of a week, there aren't too many that have been so up and down, full of such incredible highs and also made me feel so terribly low within such a short space of time.  Although my response may not have been appropriate I still feel the same with regards to Fitness Australia and that is that it was handled very inappropriately (a view that my therapist also shares) and came from a place of pure ignorance and lack of understanding of what PTSD is and how it affects someone.  It wasn't researched well at all.

I still maintain that a rather large catering bill was also, under the circumstances behind the story, very inappropriate and I'm not sure why this occurred.  I know there has been some issues with how that organisation has handled things in the past, experiencing this I'm not at all surprised.  Ok enough negativity, now on to the positives because there are so many.

I ran my first run session as a level 1 run coach and have had only positive feedback since the session.  It wasn't a small group, there were 20 present and all seemed to enjoy it and take something away from it.  I honestly loved it and it's something I'm very passionate about and want to continue to do and grow both in knowledge to help other people reach their goals and growth within myself also as a person.

An angel visited me mid week (probably when I was at my lowest) and has paid for my bike to be repaired and that has been dropped off to the repair centre for a quote.  I should also have enough left to also replace all of my branded clothes that were cut off me in emergency.  Incredible act of kindness from another human being without expectations of anything in return.

I've had three days where I have been able to take my neck brace off and although it has felt weird and even a little frightening I can't begin to describe the freedom that it has brought me physically.  I have such a long way to go and I know it will be a long journey but I also know I have many good people by my side.

I completed my first parkrun since the accident (5 weeks tomorrow) today and did it with ease.  The feeling to be back out there was incredible and the support was phenomenal.  I can't begin to describe the joy it has brought me to be back out there doing what I love even if it's not quite how I want.  Seeing people reduced to tears being told my story by the Run director made my heart melt that so many people who don't even know me do care.

I will have some humps to get over, some that I've only discovered in the last couple of days and will follow through with my specialists next week but all in all I'm travelling pretty well for someone who probably shouldn't be here.  Thanks again everyone for your support it really does keep me going.

Signing out

Donna Xo