Change feels impossible

I'm not able to say too much tonight, I can honestly say its one of the saddest days ever in my life.  It's no-ones fault, not even mine just one of those moments when you try & tell yourself it's for the best but every inch of you is screaming otherwise.  You tell yourself, you've been bottling emotions since the accident, trying to be brave so they are brobably sitting on the surface just waiting to pounce.

I know I've been true to myself, worked really hard overcoming obstacles in my way and I believe I've done that not once forgetting anyone along the way.   I've been loyal, honest, caring, giving of myself, completely open to knew things, putting in full trust, questioning very little along the way.

If I don't somehow turn this into a positive I've lost the battle right there, before I even started the damn thing.  I believe I'm strong enough and I will get through this like everything else.

I'm sorry I can't write anything I'm thinking sleep is more important right now while I'm so emotional and let's be honest I did break my neck less than 6 weeks ago.

I'm hoping for a fresh perspective in the morning

Donna Xo